Contemplation

Two Roads.....
April 11, 2011

Charlotte:
"I realize that I am writing this mostly so that I can hear my own words. I think we all have a need to be heard, especially our deepest darkest secrets. Perhaps, that sharing is the most healing of all…… the deepest darkest parts of our soul. I am believing that it is only by shining the light on those parts of us, that we can set ourselves free to discover the path that is for our best and highest good. “Let there be light!”

We have been going through a challenging transformational period..... lots of growth and awareness coming up for us these last couple of weeks. We are once again feeling ourselves at a fork in the road.... " Two roads diverged  in the woods"........ We don't want to get stuck in a rut. We want to be open to change. We feel we are headed in a new direction with regard to what we are doing with our lives...... how we are showing up each day..... our pursuits...... our livelyhood. We want to be part of the change that is taking place in the world right now.

 I believe the catalyst was when we lost our friend, Judi. That was a wake-up call for us. Judi was only 50 and healthy..... as far as anyone knew. She went to bed on Saturday night and never woke up again.

This is what we know for sure. It is something we have become aware of in the past few months. Age has a huge influence on what we put importance on. Larry will be 71 this year and I will be 61. What's important to us and how we want to "spend" our time, a most precious gift, has changed greatly over the last few years. Some of it has to do with who we are as individuals and some of it has to do with age. Age plays a huge part in our priorities. Our history, upbringing, what others think of us, how we define ourselves, how we define our world, our personal self-esteem, all play a huge part in our priorities and how we see things. What stories are we telling ourselves??? Are they really true?

The lesson from our friend Judi, who was in the process of making more time to spend with family (she owned her own business – an accounting and tax business!) is that you can run out of time while you are trying to find more time. You can run out of life while you are living for that “someday”. You can run out of days while you are chasing after the dream. When we were young, we thought we had all the time in the world. As one gets older, one becomes more aware of the clock ticking. Things that have been important, lose their importance. Your priorities change.

We are seeing things very differently these days. Stuff can own you, if you aren't careful. Dreams of ownership; whether it be a home, car, RV, etc., the illusion of security - they all cost us time. How do we want to spend our time and in the end will it really be worth it? That is where we are..... taking a closer look at how we want to spend our lives. ..... our time on this planet. We want to be fully awake instead of lost in delusions and illusions. We want to "be the change we want to see in the world." We want to be part of the shift that we see and feel taking place.

This is what we know for sure – we left our jobs at Lawrence Livermore Laboratories in 1981 because we did not want to live lives “of quiet desperation” …..

Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them. Henry David Thoreau

We don't want to go to the grave with our song still in us. It is time for contemplation and evaluation once again. Someone once said to us "healing doesn't always mean getting well." I think we are headed down a new path. As we are learning, there is so much more to health and healing than nutrition. There is a powerful healing energy in the mind, body, spirit connection. We hope you'll join us as we share what we have been learning and practicing in our lives. We are far richer for the experience..... Open  your heart to the possibilites.